Saturday, May 19, 2007

Been Busy

I haven't been writing here lately. And maybe some people have noticed. I know Master has. But, I have had to go back to dancing until I find a regular job. Not to mention this week has been finals week for school. And of course, if that's not enough stress, my schedule for dancing has been up and down. Day. Night. Night. Day.

So when I get home, I'm mentally exhausted. And my body is sore, if not down right screaming at me. Master has been taking really good care of me and has been endlessly understanding. And gods do I appreciate it. He has been giving me back and leg rubs, making dinner, letting me do my journal entry (the one I keep only for Him) a day late. Things like that.

But honestly, it has been conflicting with my slave needs in a way. I know we need the money, and I understand that. But I feel like a bad girl if I am so tired that I can't get my eyes to focus on the journal pages. I feel like a bad girl if my arms and legs are to sore for me to rub His back. I have, of course, told Him all of this, and He just looks at me and says "It's what I tell you to do. So, in fact you're being a good girl." Which is true. He does tell me to let my journal entry wait, He does tell me to get some extra sleep, He does tell me not to rub His back.

I just can't wait until I have a normal job, with regular hours.

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