Thursday, March 29, 2007

Punishment for a Masochist

I have heard slaves say that they love being punished. When I have asked them why they enjoy displeasing their Master or Mistress they simply tell me it is because they enjoy the pain. And I think to myself, "Well that's not really a punishment at all then is it? Its more like giving in so a slave will stop acting up."

I personally, am a masochist. And yes, my Master does use physical punishment with me. Maybe it is because of my state of mind, but the pain I receive from Him during a punishment is not pleasurable at all. It hurts, and in a very bad way. Now, the very next day my Master could do the same exact thing and the pain would feel "good" to me. Why? Because I know it is because He wishes to do so, not because I had disappointed Him. That is what makes a world of difference to me, whether or not He is happy with me. If I have disappointed Him and physical punishment is what He decides on, it is like my brain finds a little light switch in the back of my head and goes "click.... Okay this isn't going to feel good at all." And it gets switched back once I have been forgiven for my disobedience or "screw up".

He does use other forms of punishment with me though. Sometimes He takes my cigarettes away, or I can't have an orgasm for "x" amount of time, or I have to sleep on the floor for "x" amount of nights. There are of course other punishments that He uses. He is a very creative Man.

But back to my original point, if a slave wants to receive pain, why not beg for it rather then acting out? Wouldn't that be more productive? Or perhaps, some Dominants actually enjoy a slave that will act out. I don't know. I do know however, that it would irritate the hell out of my Master if I chose such tactics. But every relationship, whether a D/s, M/s or other, is different.

There have been times where I have begged for a spanking or for Him to use the flogger on me. And sometimes, if He is in the mood to do so and has the time, He will grant me my request. Other times He likes to watch me simmer and wait until a day or so later. Evil of Him, but always worth the wait.


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